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Earth Day 2026

I got up like three times before 8am to pee and I was not happy. I slept until 930 and then got up for my therapy appt. I didn’t make coffee because I was in such a mood. I also didn’t want to go downstairs because my niece’s ex brought his dog so there were two dogs to deal with. I didn’t feel like dealing. Therapy went ok. We talked about my paper and she liked how I gave a therapist’s perspective in it. We also talked about some guidelines around trauma talking. We didn’t get into it because we spent so much time talking about the article I sent her.

I had coffee and met the dogs after. My sister called and asked if I wanted coffee so after I made my cup, I went downstairs. I made a bagel as it was going to be some time before dinner. Today was my niece’s birthday and we were taking her to a Chinese food place to celebrate. She had her first alcoholic drink today. Then I think they went to the casino for some shots. They got a room so they wouldn’t have to drive back home. The casino is in the next town over so it is not far from where we live. I didn’t want to go so I went home with my brother in law who told me about his family and how dysfunctional they were. I already knew.

I have to write a 600 word paper on a science topic for lab due next week. I think I will write about Alzheimer’s. It runs on both sides of my family. I just have to look up some articles and see what kind of paper I need to write. It’s something like pick a topic and then ask a question about your topic, which is kind of weird.

I managed to shave, shower, and brush my teeth today. And then when I got into clean clothes, I leaked so had to change my underwear. I am seeing uro again to find out why I am leaking. Sometimes I am aware and sometimes I am not. Today I was not aware but I felt wet. The dogs are back. I love when they howl at each other. They are so cute. I love them.

Long lab session

I had some good sleep though I kind of woke up at 1 to pee and couldn’t get back to sleep. I finally did around 8am for a couple of hours. I had to get up for coffee and then get ready to go to campus. I was an hour early, which just made the day longer. I was stuck in lab because I missed a crucial lab of what we were doing today and the TA wanted to make sure I got it. I am failing the lab and the teacher finally got back to me. She gave me an excel sheet to “predict” my grade and if the scores pan out, I will get a C in the class but I have it as a pass/fail just in case it is not.

I didn’t get home until after 7pm after leaving at 12. I tried to get my meds but the card reader at the ATM I use wasn’t working. So I went to another ATM near my home. This way I can just go to the pharmacy my next trip out.

I had a ton of anxiety about my therapy appt so I asked my therapist if I could see her tomorrow rather than Thursday. I have an appt with my pcp and I would have to be near the clinic for my 1pm appt with my therapist and then the 230 appt with pcp. We decided, sort of, to talk about trauma and I didn’t know if the weather would cooperate with me to talk outside. I can just talk tomorrow in the privacy of my home, hopefully near Honey, if my niece isn’t home. She has been home the past few days after being gone for like two weeks. I hope she goes back to work tomorrow so I can have my Honey time.

I wanted to take a hot shower because my upper body is hurting. I had to lug my laptop into lab and that just makes my bag so heavy. I was really tired by the end of lab so going home I got out of breath really easily. My leg is swollen but the sock marks have dissipated. My ankle hurts. I really got to take a shower tomorrow. I am spent and don’t have the energy for one.

Marathon Monday 2026

I have a childhood friend that runs the Boston Marathon every year. He has been doing it for the past 28 years. I am so proud of him. The Sox won their game. They tied the series so that was good.

It took forever for me to get up today. I just didn’t want to. A little after noon, I got up to make some coffee but I didn’t eat anything with it. My stomach was bothering me and I wasn’t sure if the coffee was going to make it worse or not. After the coffee, I went back to my room as I had therapy. It went ok. We talked about stuff and I told her I wanted to start, gently, to talk about trauma. She agreed and we will have a bit more of discussion the next time we meet. I gave her my analysis of a song paper to read.

The puppy was a little rascal today because my niece was home. After she ate, she became this little energized bunny. She “attacked” me with kisses. It was a funny thing. I loved it. She was so loveable.

It was cold today, barely above 50 degrees. And the wind made things colder. It is cold in my room now because the wind has picked up. After therapy, I took a long nap. I didn’t want to get up but I had to eat something. I made a chicken sandwich. The puppy wanted some, of course. I told her no and she went back to her room.

I tried to do the lab work and I have no idea how to answer the questions so I guessed. Going to be cold tomorrow, too. I am going to have to bring my laptop. We will be running some program on genes.

I don’t know why I feel so sleepy. I need to read the chapter that we are on. I hope it isn’t long.

Another sleepless night on a cold night

It has been cold most of the day and rainy. I tried sleeping with the pup last night and it didn’t work at all. I just couldn’t fall asleep. She was all over the place, kept moving around. Thankfully my niece is home so she can calm her down. I was literally up from 10 am Saturday till about 5pm today.

I still feel tired. I had to get up to pee. I petted puppy for a bit who was really happy to see me. She kept pawing at my chest and licking my face. I didn’t do anything today. I feel kind of down. I kept on having these fantasies that I was in kidney failure again. I was going through my calendar last night and realized I don’t have most of the appts that I should have in it. So I added them. I have to add the appts in June too but will do that another day.

I am going to read tomorrow. I have just therapy planned. I am not sure what we will talk about. I had a lot of pain last night that I ended up taking a pain med, which contributed to me staying up all night. My left leg has been bothering me for some reason. I don’t know if it is because of the T shot or something else. And despite me taking a shower, I feel so itchy all over my body. I had to take a Benadryl.

I don’t have a book that I can read. Well I do have books, I just can’t decide which one to read next. I think it is going to be the Joe Kelly one about baseball. That should be fun.