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Lot of walking going around in circles

I got up early and had my coffee. The puppy had a mess in the kitchen so I cleaned it up. I let her out for the sunshine even though when I went out there, it started to get cloudy. Rain was in the forecast but I wasn’t sure when it would be. I had a couple of hours before I had to leave the house.

I played with the puppy for about an hour. She wanted attention like no one gives her any. She kept going to the top of the stairs and then the back door for whatever reason and then came into the bedroom. She did this a few times. I don’t know what she was hearing. But then my niece came and took her for a walk. I went upstairs to my room.

I got dressed and then got my stuff together. I grabbed a recycled bag as I planned on going grocery shopping after my appt with the DMH worker. It was a nice day as I headed out even though the pollen count was high again. I waited for the bus and then the train. It was quick. I had about an hour to kill before my appt. I decided to go to the Verizon store to see if they could help me connect my acct to the app but there was just one guy there and he needed the other guy to help him. He told me to go to another store in downtown Boston to get it done. He also wanted me to switch to Verizon wireless. No thanks. I went across the street to Starbucks where they made my drink wrong but I got a reusable cup. I had one but someone got rid of the straw and lid on it so I have a new one now.

I told my DMH worker I was having surgery on Mon. She wants me to text her afterwards to let her know how I am doing. We set up a time in three weeks but I told her I might not be up and running by then. After the appt I went to the grocery store. They didn’t have the burgers I wanted. I was able to get some stuff for my chicken casserole dish but I didn’t have enough cash for everything. I was going around in circles in the store as I was not familiar where things were. I put in a lot of steps today by the time I came home. I thought about picking up my meds but I didn’t want the chicken to go bad being out for more than an hour. I will do that tomorrow.

I came home and was exhausted. I still needed to make dinner. I was kind of hungry. I had made a couple eggs before I got ready but I shared half with the puppy. I made a burger that I took out. I thought about making the chicken but it is too soon. I don’t want it to go bad before next week. I will make it over the weekend. I still need a couple of ingredients to complete the list.

My sister came home and I went downstairs. We had dinner. Then bitch came home and we got into an argument. Started when my sister said that her daughter needs to clean her room which bitch then said Mr. G needs to do the same. She kept on saying she will give me a box and a trash bag. I told her to fuck the box. She got me so mad. She said she wasn’t going to help me when she has the rest of the house. Then she asked why I couldn’t get someone to help me. I told her that I couldn’t get help with abled bodied people. She said to tell them that the other people in the house work. Obviously, she doesn’t understand abled bodied. Fucking idiot. I got so fucking mad I could feel my blood pressure rise. I had to leave. I grabbed the few things my sister gave me that I needed for Sunday and left. I am so aggravated. She just thinks she is right and I am wrong. And she has this smug attitude that I just want to slap silly.

I am going to bed early tonight because I got to pick up my meds tomorrow and the last few ingredients for the casserole. Maybe I will get a chapter or two of Finlay in as well (book I am reading).

Hot Wed 27052026

Today has been really warm. It is like 84F. My room is 81F with the ceiling fan on. I tried to make some headway towards the window by getting the recycle out of the way. There was more stuff than I realized there. Going to take a day to sort out. Hopefully by the weekend, I will have my AC working.

I was late in giving my T shot again this time around. I meant to do it in the morning but it slipped my mind. I had therapy this afternoon and we talked about one of my exes. It was a good talk. I am trying to set boundaries as I don’t want to be hurt again. We also talked about upcoming surgery and how my appt went yesterday. I told her it was kind of weird I didn’t get a slew of emails for our future appts. Maybe they will come later.

I wanted to take a shower before therapy but it never happened. So I will take one after I write this blog. I bought some Gatorade and more half and half. I had my last chicken pattie for lunch. I have no idea what I am having for dinner. I am not really hungry.

I finally got my pain meds squared away with my pcp. She put in a different script and it should be able to go through tomorrow. I will pick it up after my DMH worker’s appt. I plan on having a Starbucks drink tomorrow. I need a reward for finishing the semester even if grades aren’t back yet. UGH. Watch them come in on Friday, the day they are due.

I might read tonight after my shower. I wanted to read when I was up at 3am but I didn’t want to get all excited and be up all day. I managed to get some sleep afterwards around 6 or so.

My day

I got up around 930. I had a very weird dream that seemed to go on forever and woke up with a headache. I took my meds and then went to the kitchen. The puppy wanted out and immediately laid in the sun. She is so cute. She stayed for a while until I was half way through my coffee. I had a couple of hours till I had to get ready to leave for my appt. It was going to be a hot day.

I misplaced my headphones and couldn’t remember where I put them. They were hiding under my hoodie. I put them near my wallet so I wouldn’t forget them. About the time I had to leave, my bowels decided to go. I grabbed my sneakers and my stuff and hurried to the bathroom. I hate when they decide to go at weird times. But I am glad I went as it has been a few days.

I forgot my hat so went up to my room to get it and then left the house. At the end of the street I went down, they were doing work on the fire hydrant again. It was all carved out. I have no idea what the fuck they are doing. They just put new asphalt there. Then on my way to the bus stop another area they just paved was torn up. I had to walk across the path as there was no where else to go other than the street. I had three minutes before the bus came so it was good timing.

I met the surgeon and he is nice. I like him a lot. He answered my questions and repeated that this was not urgent. I could put it off while I am not having symptoms but somewhere down the line, I will need to have this surgery. So I decided to move forward with it. We talked about my pain meds and he agreed to talk to my pcp about prescribing it this week. I hope she does before Friday.

My check came in late so I wasn’t able to pay my cell bill until today. I am a day late in paying it. I will be charged a few dollars more next month as a fee for being late. It was out of my control as my pay day was Sun and then Mon was a holiday.

After my appt, I picked up my meds. I didn’t pay attention to the time. They were closed for their lunch break. I had to wait 15 minutes. My back didn’t like that at all. It has been giving me grief all day for some reason. I think the change in temps is causing havoc with my pain levels. All I did today while I was out was sweat. I need a shower as my sister noticed I smelled. I will take one tomorrow. I cleared some recycling off my bed but wasn’t able to bring more down. I need to take some stuff down so I can access the window and my AC. It is supposed to be warm next week and I will need my room cool to be comfortable.

My allergies were off the rocker today. The pollen count was high and on the bus ride home some pollen was floating around. I got wind of it and started sneezing. Luckily, it was just three sneezes and not twenty. I came home tired and sleepy. I had to eat something. I had leftover potatoes and sausages but it was mostly potatoes. Then I rested with the puppy.

Memorial Day 2026

A shout out to the 13 service men and women that died this year due to dummy in chief’s war with Iran. They would still be alive today if the GOP weren’t cowards. But to all the service people that died, I am thinking of them on this day of remembrance.

I’ve had an okayish day despite being grumpy this morning. My bitch sister cleaned the kitchen and the smells caused a sneeze attack. I have not recovered as my throat is still sore and my nose is still stuffy. I have been trying to drink fluids but without Gatorade, it’s been hard. Plain water is difficult for me. I can sometimes drink it without a problem but sometimes I can’t because I need the sugar. I am a sugar addict I will admit it.

I’ve played with the dog today. She briefly got out unsupervised but we got her back in. My sister took her for a walk and she stayed in the yard for a bit. She got plenty of treats from my brother in law.

I tried to clear my bed off today but I wasn’t feeling it. I took some stuff off. The bag that I have been using as a recycle is heavy. I will need to be careful bringing it downstairs. It was raining this morning but then cleared up by the afternoon. It is warm and sunny out. I have no idea where I am going to put my Bio book or my laptop. That is really the only stuff remaining on my bed that needs a “home”.

I had a burger for dinner again. I want to read my book for an hour or so. I need something funny. I got the beginnings of a headache so we’ll see how far that goes. I had therapy today. We didn’t talk about anything specific because I couldn’t think of anything to talk about. I still need to read that safety plan article. Maybe I will read it tomorrow. Grades still haven’t been posted. I am getting anxious.

I see my surgeon tomorrow and have about a half dozen questions. I hope he has time to answer them. I don’t know if I will be doing the consents in his office or day of surgery. I am glad the appt is in the afternoon. I don’t think I can do a morning appt. I got up around 10 today and was so grumpy until I had my coffee. I hate mornings. They should be illegal.