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Mondays are going to be long days

I had therapy at 9 this morning and I wanted to sleep. I had to take a shower as it has been days since the last one. I had no coffee during therapy but did have to go to the bathroom because my damn bowels decided it wanted to go. Ugh. I didn’t even take senna last night. I seriously thought I was going to shit myself if I didn’t go when I did. I was so uncomfortable.

Therapy went ok. We talked about classes mostly and the weekend. I had two days where I didn’t sleep. She asked how my appetite was and I said it was better as I am eating. Won’t be until next week when I start the new med. I had weird dreams all night with headaches. I told her I had weird dreams but didn’t tell her about the headaches. I forgot I had them, to be honest. It has been so long since I have had dreams with headaches.

After therapy I made a cup of coffee. I tried eating a smores pop tart but couldn’t finish it. I took a shower after. I still had time to catch the bus if I rushed but I didn’t. I just missed the bus when I left the house. I had to wait a half hour for the next one. I still got to class on time. I was able to do the homework assignment but I had no idea what the fuck I was doing. I was so nervous I did it wrong, I had to see the professor during office hours. She said I did the right thing and she liked what I wrote. The second class of the day I had a hard time finding the classroom. I was on the wrong floor for one. Then I had to look for the 200s. After class, I decided to go up to the psychology dept to see if I knew anyone. Not really. I looked at the faculty page. And the advisor that was assigned to me. He is not someone that matches me but he is in clinical psych so that is something. I was sad to find out my advisor retired over the summer. I sent her a message wishing her well.

On the way home I was starving. I need to bring a sandwich with me between classes. Train was re-routed so I was mad. I just missed the bus but it got held up by the red light so I was able to go on it. I hit the pharmacy on the way home because I wanted a bologna sandwich. I am still hungry as I gave some of my sandwich to my pup. I looked at how many steps I did and I wanted to cry. No wonder my feet hurt so much. I did a lot of steps. I am so tired. I am going to go to bed early. It’s questionable what I will do tomorrow. I know I do have to shave again.

Saturday Blog 12092026

I got up around 10. I had woken up three time to pee and finally gave up going back to sleep. I had taken my meds around 6 when I first woke up. I had some coffee and a pop tart. I really didn’t want coffee but I drank it anyway. I don’t know why I am losing interest in coffee. Some days I have to have it, others I can care less.

I shaved after. My goatee was thick. I checked to see when the last time I trimmed it. It wasn’t even two weeks yet. I thought about trimming it but didn’t feel like it. I used the new shave gel to see if I liked it. It doesn’t have a good scent but it was decent. It got the job done. I found my Gillette aftershave so I put it on my face and under my chin. It smells so good.

I then got ready to go to the market. I decided because my headphones fell out of my pocket to go to the meat market rather than the grocery store. I bought a steak and some burgers. I will make the steak tonight maybe with some mashed potatoes. I want to grill it. I know I am going to fuck it up. I most likely will be too rare.

Now I got to do school work. I started reading the chapter last night but I couldn’t finish it. I still got to do the quiz. I have no idea what my history homework is. I haven’t looked at it.

I am tired and I was only out for about an hour. I was able to time the bus right. I am missing my sister and my niece. They are in Italy right now. They don’t come home until next week. I am feeling really sad. I hope I can read all that I need to. I am not going to pay attention too much to the Sox game. I feel they are just going to lose today and tomorrow. They aren’t playing well at all lately. Lost their last five games against last place teams.

Much needed sleep

I got up a few times during the night to pee but for the most part I slept and didn’t get up till around 1ish. I took my meds around 9 but I didn’t take the weight loss drug until I got up. I feel depressed today so I didn’t do much. I had something to eat but didn’t want coffee. I had a soda instead with my chicken sandwich. I wanted to shave but just couldn’t do it.

I made a call to the pharmacy as the other day I was wheezing and didn’t know where my albuterol was. The pharmacy said there was a problem with my insurance. This is the second time I have had a problem. I got a message to my doc and apparently they were going to send it to the other pharmacy but forgot or something. They are working on it. I hope I don’t need it before then.

I tried cuddling with Honey but she just wanted to stay on her dog bed. I made an iced coffee around 5pm. I wanted something with caffeine as I need to read today. I did nothing yesterday but recover from all the walking I did on Wed. I did submit a thing on the gender. I was the first to do so. Someone else submitted last night and I read what they wrote. It made me angry as they thing gender is biological. I didn’t respond to the post. I didn’t know what to say other than to call them an idiot. Ugh.

I ate a lot when I got up. I had my sandwich, some chips, and then some ice cream. The ice cream was icy and didn’t taste very good. I think it defrosted and then got refrozen. I ate half of it. I now have a stomachache.

I never went out to get my steak. I will try tomorrow. I might get burgers too if they have them. I have like $24 in food stamps. I got to save at least $7 for half and half. I have a full container right now but I will be needing a new one in a week or so, especially as my sister uses it too.

So far in my two classes, I don’t have papers to write. Score!! I do have a lot to read tho. That sucks. I have to re-read the introductory chapter in my gender book because I don’t remember what it was about. I also have a syllabus quiz to take for it. I had my bitch sister print it out for me so I could take it. There are only six questions so shouldn’t be too hard.