midnightdemons7

Crappy few days

I have a bad UTI that is causing bleeding. I started antibiotics today so I hope by Mon I will be feeling better. I feel like crap right now. I slept all day yesterday because I had a rotten night the night before. I was dealing with pain most of the night. It kept me up till 2am or so.

It was raining today so I got a little damp when I went out. I am glad it wasn’t raining hard despite thunderstorms. It was loud. I felt like taking a nap when I came home but I had therapy so I couldn’t. I had no idea what I was going to talk about in therapy. Lately it has been hard to think about anything to talk about. Like today we were 20 mins in and I didn’t know what to talk about anymore. She filled in some stuff about what we talked about Tues and how she was going to send me a list of the things I can do to feel better. Then we talked about Honey for a little bit. I told her she was dressed as the Grinch right now. She is so cute. She went to the vet the other day and is 45 lbs. I can’t believe it.

I don’t know what else I talked about in therapy. I took a nap afterwards. I just wanted to stay in bed. I took my temp because I wanted to make sure I wasn’t running a fever. I wasn’t, thank god. I just feel awful. I couldn’t sleep too long as I had to do some schoolwork. I didn’t do any yesterday. Today’s reading is not a pleasant subject. I am still thinking about how to answer the questions.

My therapist said she was able to talk to my psychiatrist. It went well except for me. They think I need a lockbox for my meds. I don’t think I need one as I can manage my meds just fine. She also asked if she could get a release form for talking to my sister for emergencies only. I had no problem with this. It would only be if she wasn’t able to get in touch with me.

I feel so tired. I got good sleep last night. I didn’t wake up at all in the middle of the night. I hope I can sleep good tonight as well.

I forgot to pack a lunch

I got up early because I had to pee. I didn’t want to risk not getting up so I just stayed up. I had my coffee but didn’t eat anything. I wasn’t really hungry. I did think of making something for lunch but then it got late and I had to leave the house without anything. I was at the bus stop before I thought about this. I knew I was going to regret this.

Class went fine. I have a B in my history class. Evaluations are due. I just got the email today and if we screenshot the end, we get extra credit. I am surprised they sent them out so early. Usually it is a couple weeks before semester ends. I had my presentation in my networking class today. I was doing fine until I lost my train of thought near the end. I felt embarrassed. I found out that the interview that I did was not for the interview for class that we need. Fucking a. Now I got to find someone different.

I was starving by the end of class and all I thought about was the leftover eggplant parm in my fridge. I also thought about the Stouffer’s dinner I had in the freezer. I ended up having both. I was really hungry.

Honey gave me love when I came home but quickly retreated back to her room when I went up the stairs. I did something to my foot on the walk home, my CRPS foot. Today is CRPS awareness day. I posted on my FB page. I think I will do so here as well.

Today was a nice warm day, too warm for November. It was cold on Halloween. I think our heat kicked on. Crazy weather past few days. But I rather not have the heat on to save on the gas bill.