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Therapy and baseball

I slept with the puppy last night and got the best sleep. She was nothing like the night before. She stayed cuddled with me most of the night. My med alarm woke me up. I stayed in bed for about another hour and then got up to take them. My bitch sister was home and when I got to my room, I was confused on what day of the week it was. My med box was full so I thought it was Sunday but I knew I was having therapy so it had to be Mon. Then I remembered Sunday was full because I always fill the box for the week so that Sunday morning I don’t have to fill it to take my meds. After I sorted the confusion and took my meds, I went downstairs for coffee. I asked puppy if she wanted to join me and didn’t follow me so I guess that was a no.

I had the cornbread I made yesterday. I forgot to cover it and luckily it wasn’t hard as a rock this morning. I took a piece and then covered it. Then I had some yogurt when I finished my coffee. I found that eating yogurt and drinking coffee doesn’t go well together. By the time I was done, it was close to therapy time so I went up to my room. I wanted to have it with my puppy like last week but I didn’t want bitch listening to my conversation.

Therapy went ok. We talked about the puppy. On Saturday night she went under the blanket and cuddled me. I laughed and was happy because she finally settled down after being up most of the night. I didn’t sleep though. She was like a toddler in bed. Last night she was happy I was staying with her again and I think that settled her because she didn’t leave my side all night. We also talked about my shaking. I had to reduce the Depakote to see if it a side effect or a nerve thing. I just hope I don’t get bombarded with headaches. I am meeting her again this week just to talk.

After therapy I planned on showering but I hate doing it when bitch is around because she like to put on the cold vent when I am in there. I hate it. I don’t want to feel cold when I shower. It is already cold in the bathroom. So I haven’t showered. I also wanted to groom but that won’t get done today. I need to shave my pits because I got a forest under my arms. I will later tonight when I know she will stay in her room.

I had another cup of coffee. I texted my sister to see if she was coming home after work and she was. She stopped at the store to pick up a rotisserie chicken and we had dinner. I am glad she didn’t notice my smell like bitch did. I think it has been a week since I last showered. I usually shower Sun and Tues nights because that is before class. But I was not feeling up to the task last week.

I thought I would be listening to the ballgame tonight but it was canceled because of rain. I am so disappointed. Sat I was going to listen to the game and they had the NCAA game on. I miss night ball games. The season doesn’t officially start until the 26^th. I cannot fricken wait. I missed my boys.

Saturday Blog 14032026.

Happy Pi day to those that celebrate, you math nerds. My day started out early because my bitch sister was up before 7am cleaning the kitchen and making noise. I went pee and then I cuddled with the dog because my niece wasn’t home and she was alone all night. She loves my Red Sox blanket. She immediately went on it when I put it on the bed. I had to be in the fetal position in order to sleep. I was able to sleep about an hour or so. I kept dreaming I was back in the lab dealing with problem samples.

I tried to take the puppy for a walk but she almost hid under the bed when I got leash. I put the leash down so she wouldn’t go under the bed. I brushed my teeth and shaved. No matter what I do I cannot get a close shave under my chin or near my neck. It feels rough.

I went to dinner with my friend from south of Boston that I see a few times a year with her kids. It was good seeing them again. I was sad to learn that she developed another type of breast cancer and because chemo knocked her system around, she can’t treat it until she recovers, which could be months or never. I feel so bad. I wish there was something I could do for her. She gets tired easily and that sucks. She was feeling it after dinner. She got home ok.

The puppy was happy I was home. I changed and been in my room. I had to take my meds because I had I full stomach. I hope my gallbladder doesn’t flare up because I had some cheese. It has been quiet the past few weeks. Hopefully it stays quiet.

Nothing matters

I slept poorly last night so I have been snoozing most of the day. I have a knot or something right under my scar on my left side and it feels like someone is poking me in the ribs. I am not in a good mood but I was glad when my sister left for work this morning. She will be gone tomorrow too. I snoozed with the puppy. She rested her head on my leg.

Last night after dinner, I got an anxiety attack with chest pain. I listened to music and took an Ativan. It helped. I weighed myself today and am discouraged to find I only lost like 0.2 lbs. I did a lot of walking this week. Anyway, my pcp is increasing the dose so hopefully that helps. I had a bowl of cereal today. It’s all I wanted to eat. I might have soup for dinner. I don’t really want to eat. I am not that hungry.

Tomorrow I will be meeting a friend for dinner. It’s a cool place in Cambridge. We have been there before. They have awesome steak. It’s a French place. I haven’t seen my friend in more than a year or so. It’s been hard scheduling to meet up.

I have had a headache for most of the day. It is just an annoying kind. I took some more Tylenol. I need to feed the puppy and take my meds soon. I will be taking trazodone tonight so hopefully my tossing and turning is minimal.