midnightdemons7

A day of being out

I woke up a few times before noon to pee. I took my meds around 8am. I finally got up around noon. I brushed my teeth but didn’t do much else. I had a doctor’s appt in an hour and a half. I decided to take a Lyft rather than deal with the T. I got there early. My pcp was able to see me as the 1pm didn’t show. We talked for nearly an hour. She said the ultrasound was for the cyst on my kidney. I forgot about that. Then she ordered blood work. We talked about the weight loss drug and my pain. She said it was ok to take the pain meds every day if I needed to. I went to get my blood drawn and the MA couldn’t get me so I had to go to the lab upstairs. I was stuck three times. I was not happy.

After the appt, I walked to the station and my back started to act up. Of all the things we talked about, I forgot to bring up my back. Fuck. I had to sit and rest halfway to the station. I went to the Square to pick up my migraine med. On the way home I picked up the last of my meds.

I came home and was tired. But I had to eat something. I made a bologna sandwich. I bought some chips so I could have it with it. I tried to take a nap but I had to take the migraine med. Then my sister called me saying she was making chicken cutlets. I stayed down with her for a bit and had some chicken.

Sox won last night. They are still playing late. I think I am going to go to bed early. I got a headache. I hate these late games.

I had no sleep last night and have been up since 9am yesterday. My foot was hurting all night long. I was expecting rain today but it never came. I also didn’t go out again.

I mostly played my game today and was on social media. I wasn’t in the mood for anything. Just been tired all day and not able to sleep. My psychiatrist got back to me this morning. He thinks my PTSD symptoms are to blame for the increase in anxiety. Wants me to talk to my therapist. I don’t see him till Sept so there is nothing he can do. He annoys me. I don’t know why I bother.

Because I was up, I followed the game. We won. I was happy. The new guy that we got in the trade got hurt last night. He has a broken wrist so will be out a few weeks. Always something.

Fucking emotions all over the place

I woke up before 9. I tried to get more sleep but I couldn’t so got out of bed around 10. I had my coffee and a breakfast sandwich. I used a creamer instead of sugar so I couldn’t finish the coffee. I didn’t finish the sandwich either. I was on social media or my game until therapy. I was feeling kind of down. Therapy we talked about a little of everything so my emotions were all over the place. I miss my puppy. She is with her daddy right now. I hope he brings her home soon.

I had lunch after therapy and then I made another cup of coffee. For some reason, it didn’t taste right so I didn’t finish it. I used sugar this time. I think I am over this brand of coffee and need to find a new one. It’s hard to find one that I like that doesn’t cost a lot. I had every intention to go out and pick up my meds today but then I laid down and got a migraine. That was the end of going out. It was too bright for me to go out. The sun hurt my eyes. I didn’t get the migraine on the usual side of my head. I got it on my left side. I hate when it switches sides on me. As I was lying down, I got an anxiety attack with palpitations again. This is the third time this has happened in the last few days. I sent a message to my psychiatrist. We’ll see if he responds. I am not hopeful.

There is going to be rain and storms the rest of the week. The storm that was 70% for Thurs is now 100%. That is going to be fun walking in it. I hope I catch it in between downpours and there isn’t flash flooding. My head will be exploding the rest of the week. My allergies have been off the rocker today. I used Flonase to try and break up the post nasal drip but it didn’t do much good. My nose is so itchy. Pollen count is medium. My sinuses have been feeling it too which doesn’t help my headache.

I have been moody most of the day. I sat with my sister tonight after she got home from work. It helped. We talked about random things. She asked if I wanted to go to a Sox game and I said I was boycotting them because of what they did to my “hubby”. I still miss him. I don’t think I will be listening to the game tonight as I am wicked tired and the game doesn’t start until 940pm. They are on the west coast right now. I follow them because they are my team and I love them still even though they kill me sometimes. They have been doing much better the past month and I hope it continues.