midnightdemons7

I didn’t sleep good last night because I was in pain. I kept dozing off but wouldn’t sleep. I didn’t have coffee or tea. I had something to eat.

I got an email from my history professor class is canceled tomorrow. I am debating going to the networking class. I did all my assignments in the early morning as I was up. I felt dizzy most of the day. I think it is because I am sleep deprived. It is still cold in my room as it’s still kind of windy out.

I needed to shower today and I didn’t. I will tomorrow. I set the alarm for 8. That should give me enough time. I don’t have to leave early. I have given up shaving. I am going to let my hair and beard grow in.

I got a lot of appts this week. Every day there is something. I am going to be tired come Fri. Just hope the brain fog and headaches are gone by then. I see neuro NP Fri. I see my DMH worker Tues. I am hoping to see her in person so I can get a Starbucks drink. I got a gift card. I am wicked stressed over my finances. I still need to put money on my Tpass and get my weight loss drug. I think I’ve gained more weight because I’ve been eating more. I just feel hungry all the time.

I still feel suicidal at times. Listening to music has helped. Last night I was listening to Terri Clark. I love her. I haven’t listened to music today because my head hurts. Hope i feel better tomorrow.

Fall day and first quiz

Because I am playing Hooky next Monday with my history class, I had to do two assignments. Problem was yesterday I was tired and didn’t feel like doing squat. I did them this morning, even though that meant leaving later than planned. The new med is still giving me a hangover and it is really hard to get up in the morning.

It is cold today but nice. I had to wear a hoodie as it was quite windy. My curtain which is wrapped around my AC is no long as such. I need to fix it and block the vents so my room doesn’t become an ice box like it did last winter. It is cold in my room now but tolerable. I just need to put on a long sleeve shirt.

I went to class and had a half hour to spare. I tried studying but my mind was frazzled. It couldn’t hold on to any information. It was worse when I was handed the quiz. I barely remembered anything I had learned over the last few weeks. I had to cite sources and shit and my brain was like fuck that. Here is some info I remember. I hope it is enough to at least pass the quiz.

There was delays on the way home but I wasn’t in a rush. I just made the bus which was good. I would have been mad if I had to wait for the next one. The guy that was at the bus stop when I was waiting in the morning was there when I was coming home. OMG he started talking about a bunch of shit, mostly saying he couldn’t get his ADHD meds anymore for whatever reason. And then he just started talking to himself. I think he was homeless or something. He didn’t pay the bus but only went a few stops.

I came home very hungry. I had a little of everything but mostly the zucchini bread my sister made. It is so good. I might have soup for tonight because it is cold out. I need to buy more. I think I only have a couple cans left. I got a recipe for Wisconsin cheddar and potato soup. I have never made a soup before. I know my sister has. She makes a good corn chowder.

Taylor comes out with a deluxe version of Showgirl and I am debating buying it. It has four new songs. It will be released on Friday. I am excited though. I don’t know if she is releasing a video with her new songs. She is releasing a single. I cannot wait. I love her so much.