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Long ass Monday

I have been up since 3 but I don’t really think I slept as I was sleeping with the puppy until then. Around 5 I got up to do my paper. I should have looked to see if there was homework due but I didn’t and there was. I decided to wait till after therapy to do it but it was closed. Fuck. I don’t remember if we could miss a homework assignment or not. I will have to check the syllabus. There are a shit load of homework to do. One is due next week. I have to read the damn chapter as I missed Wed last week and am behind again. I didn’t want to miss it but it was my niece’s birthday.

I have had three cups of coffee and no naps but I did rest. I got a migraine around 6 so I have been dealing with a lingering sleep deprived headache since. I have about an hour before I have to go to class. The teacher got back to me about my failing lab grade but never responded to my response. I am pissed off. At this point, I can only hope for a D if I pass everything from here on out.

I took a shower today. I was out of soap so used my body wash. I love the way it smells. Today pollen count is high and already my throat is killing me from clearing it so much. I had two sneeze attacks so far. I am sure when I leave I will have more. I hate this time of year. It is warm today and the puppy has been outside since she decided to get up. I tried to get her up when I was up but she was like hell no.

Therapy was good. We talked about trauma a little bit. I told her about my past relationships and how they went. We also talked about scheduling in May which is tricky because I have so many appts. We did manage at least one a week for the month. My crazy week has one appt with her. I think the only day I don’t have anything is that Friday. Somehow I need to study for my exam and final that week. I will also be seeing a long time friend the week before. He is coming to his graduation. I wish I could attend but it is in western MA and I don’t have transportation there. He is coming to Boston for some sightseeing with his hubby who I will finally meet in person rather than just talk online to.

I have no idea what I am going to wear for class. I hate having to leave the house sometimes. I need to buy more sweatpants or lounge wear, whatever the fuck is comfortable other than jeans. I miss going to Walmart. I refuse to go to Target because they are anti-LGBTQ. They lost my business forever. I would say the same to Amazon but, fuck, it is too convenient. Ok. I have like twenty minutes to take a catnap. I will write more tomorrow.

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I did nothing but sleep today. I woke up in the middle of the night. I don’t remember if I had to pee or if I just woke up. I heard my sister get up. It was like 3am. She was going to Florida for the next couple of days. I guess she had to clean the kitchen before she left because things were away when I got up around noon. I had my coffee but didn’t eat anything. I wasn’t hungry. I just felt tired. I went to lay with Honey and nearly fell asleep. I went up to my room and took a nap. I had some weird dreams that gave me a headache, which didn’t help feeling tired.

My brother in law made dinner and it was salty as hell. He overuses salt in everything he makes. I drank a lot of water.

Sox won and despite this, they went on a firing spree after the game. Luckily, my husband didn’t get canned. He was reassigned, to what, I don’t know yet. They have been playing so crappy lately but to fire half the staff in the middle of a series sucks.

I need to read my articles that I downloaded for my paper. I read one of them last night and learned that major depressive disorder and amyloid beta are related. The exact mechanism isn’t understood but there is a correlation. I guess this is why I feel slow sometimes, like my brain is just having trouble firing neurons. There wasn’t a lot written about it, though. I need to do more research on it. I am hoping to read at least one more article tonight and then get started on the paper tomorrow. I still haven’t thought about my question to propose.

I registered for a one credit course. It is in the school of counseling psychology. Something to do with work/life balance. It is about 50 mins on a Monday. I also have class on Mon so I will be on campus. I need to buy snacks to take with me. I just keep forgetting to buy them. I will have my surgery in a month. The only trouble I foresee is moving the TV we have that is blocking the stairs so the dog doesn’t come upstairs. Sometimes she likes to do her business up there so we need to block it off. I might have trouble moving it. It is not heavy but the motion to move it might cause me pain. I need to tell the surgeon that I want to stay on the pain med I am taking now and not be on another one during recovery. The pharmacy might give me trouble if I am on two different opioids. I am also going to tell my pcp as well so she is on board with it. Besides, it works better for me than something else.