midnightdemons7

Nothing matters

I slept poorly last night so I have been snoozing most of the day. I have a knot or something right under my scar on my left side and it feels like someone is poking me in the ribs. I am not in a good mood but I was glad when my sister left for work this morning. She will be gone tomorrow too. I snoozed with the puppy. She rested her head on my leg.

Last night after dinner, I got an anxiety attack with chest pain. I listened to music and took an Ativan. It helped. I weighed myself today and am discouraged to find I only lost like 0.2 lbs. I did a lot of walking this week. Anyway, my pcp is increasing the dose so hopefully that helps. I had a bowl of cereal today. It’s all I wanted to eat. I might have soup for dinner. I don’t really want to eat. I am not that hungry.

Tomorrow I will be meeting a friend for dinner. It’s a cool place in Cambridge. We have been there before. They have awesome steak. It’s a French place. I haven’t seen my friend in more than a year or so. It’s been hard scheduling to meet up.

I have had a headache for most of the day. It is just an annoying kind. I took some more Tylenol. I need to feed the puppy and take my meds soon. I will be taking trazodone tonight so hopefully my tossing and turning is minimal.

Full week of class complete

I had a difficult time sleeping last night. I was tossing and turning. In between, I had to pee urgently. It was some time before I finally settled down and slept. I don’t remember when I got up but I needed coffee. I went downstairs and brushed my teeth and then made coffee. I played with the pup for a bit while it was brewing. She has claimed my Red Sox blanket and I don’t know when I am going to get it back.

I just had one cup of coffee and some yogurt. I fed the dog and then it was time for me to catch the bus. I really didn’t want to leave the pup but next week is spring break so I have all week to be with her. I went three days to campus this week. My legs and back hurt. I also have nerve pain which my neuro attributes to my increased in activity.

There were more delays on the red line today. I missed my 730 bus again because of it. I had to wait a half hour for the next one. I listened to my music and scared away pigeons that came too close to me. On the street that becomes a mile, I saw a rat. Damn things. It hid under the car as I walked past.

I am so tired. My foot hurts. I had cereal for dinner because all I had today was yogurt. I didn’t really know what else to eat. I showered today and trimmed my beard. I didn’t do a good job. I will have to fix it tomorrow or take it off. I am leaning toward taking it off. I will try to do it tomorrow before therapy. I have another therapy session this week. She offered and I took it. It helps.

Delayed trains today

I woke up later than I wanted to. I quickly did the pre lab and then I got dressed to catch the bus. I just made it again. I got to the train station and there were delays. Every stop we stayed for a few minutes. I didn’t know if I was going to be on time for lab so I emailed the TA as we have a 15 min tardy rule. She said it would be find.

Lab was exhausting. I just wanted to work on the worksheet and leave. It was a group effort so We all inputted something. Around 4, we were done and I hightailed out of there. My legs were sore but much better than yesterday. I caught the shuttle and there were delays. I just wanted to go home. When I got to the bus stop, I had two minutes to catch the bus and didn’t think I was going to make it. But it was delayed for a bit so I caught it. My bitch sister was at the stop. We rode home together.

I am tired. I had something to eat and then took my meds. I am trying to relax so I can go to bed early. I woke up early and then slept with the pup. I didn’t bring my glasses or phone with me again, which is why I slept late.