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Another headache day

I’ve had a headache since this afternoon. Every day for the past two weeks, I have had a headache or a migraine. I am so sick of them. Nothing really takes care of them. I take Tylenol or ibuprofen and the pain goes down to a simmer only when it wears off, it comes roaring back.

I had a good sleep. I slept until 6 because I had to pee and then I took my meds. I was able to go back to sleep till 11. Then I got up. Someone ate my pop tarts and I am not happy. I didn’t have anything with my coffee. The Nature Valley PB&J bars are gross. I won’t be buying them again. I want to make cornbread but I am out of milk. I suppose I could use half and half. It has milk in it. Maybe I will do that tomorrow.

I shaved and brushed my teeth after I had coffee. I had missed a spot on my face so I had to do it again. I hate my bathroom mirror as it isn’t close up. I often miss spots when I shave because of this. I can’t wear my glasses shaving.

I am tired. I didn’t do anything today except play with the puppy. She kept on going in and out of the house. It drove me mad. Then she would whine if we didn’t let her back out. She was playful today, which I liked. I got scratches on my chest where she pawed at me. Silly pup. I love her.

I need to review the PDF of the webinar I will be attending tomorrow. Some times are late and other talks are early. I wish it was chronological. It will be the rest of this week. I don’t know if it is an all day thing or not. It will be fun though, for me. I haven’t been to a suicidal talk in a long time. I miss the academics and research. I will become a member of the AAS again when I get paid next. It is $50 for students. I just hope I don’t have to be full time. I can only go half time.

I feel like I need to talk to someone about my headaches but I don’t know who. I don’t see my neuro until Oct. I am depressed and feel like I should talk to psych. Both probably. But I am not suicidal so maybe a psych er visit isn’t necessary. I am thinking about going to the ED for the headaches. They have been going on for too long.

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I had a sleepy day today. I got up around 1 and had coffee. I had some pumpkin bread with it. Then I brushed my teeth. I cuddled with Honey after. I was trying to snooze again. I had put a load of laundry in and I had to switch the washer for the dryer. I washed my clothes as well as my niece’s.

I didn’t know what to eat so I ate nothing. I thought about making a PB&J but never did. I made corn and ate a few pieces. It was good, nice and sweet. I got another fucking headache today. They are driving me insane. I want to read but I can’t as it just makes my head hurt more. I am listening to music right now and it is soothing. Game is on and I am keeping track of it. I know if I listen to it, I will surely fall asleep. Sox are leading 1-0 right now. They lost last night.

I have been going to bed around 8pm the last few nights and waking up almost 12 to 15 hours later, minus a pee run or two. My suicidality flitters around. I have not acted on the feelings. My despair hasn’t been that great. I just feel hopeless this is ever going to end. It just goes on and on. Each episode is different. I am hypersomnia right now but sometimes I can not be able to sleep at all. I can overeat or not eat. I usually have some form of concentration to read but sometimes I just don’t feel like it because it just feels too much.

I needed to shave today but couldn’t do it. Just managing to brush my teeth was an accomplishment. My foot is starting to hurt again. I hope I don’t have to take pain meds again. I took some ibuprofen and Tylenol for the headache. I didn’t take anything for the headache yesterday. I wish I had fioricet. That shit works but they hate giving it out. Assholes.