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Tired Friday

I had a difficult time going to sleep last night. I was in a lot of pain between my head, stomach, foot, and then my back started. I took some Benadryl because my allergies were wild. I thought that would put me to sleep but in the end, I ended up taking Ativan and that really put me out.

I woke up a few times in the morning but was able to go back to sleep. I got up around 1pm and just wanted coffee. I planned not on eating today, just drinking fluids. I had sent a message to my doc and they said I was constipated so to take stuff to go. They suggested 2 kiwis but I am not a big kiwi fan. I can have a piece not a whole thing. I plan on taking miralax tonight and hope I don’t have a blowout. I have been moving my bowels but they have been hard and painful.

I had planned on making zucchini bread today but I was too tired to do it. I feel hungover. I had two big cups of iced tea. I already took a nap. Sox are playing in like 45 mins. Big series with the wild card on the line. I am already biting my nails. I don’t like the pitcher who is pitching tonight. I haven’t decided if I will listen or not. Lately, I have just been following gameday on the app. The radio app tends to me a few seconds behind it. If I do listen to it, I hope I don’t fall asleep.

Ten is 35 years old

Thirty-five years ago today, Ten by Pearl Jam came out. It is my favorite album of theirs. It got me through some hard times. It is hard to pick one song that is my favorite. Right now I am listening to Black because it is so good. It was one of the only albums that I listened to when I was in the hospital back in 1994.

I was up early this morning because my sister kept slamming her fucking door. Three fucking times she slammed it. I thought the second time was when she left but nope. I was up before 7am. I am a little cranky right now. I have been tearful today because of Dolly Parton’s passing. I listened to her singing “I will always love you” and then I realized Whitney is no longer with us either so it will never be sung live anyone by those that recorded it. I just started crying. Then someone posted on FB all the people who died in 2026 and I cried at that too.

Around 10, I brushed my teeth and shaved my head and face. I need to put some lotion on my chin and between my eyebrows as there are patches of dry skin there. I don’t know if it’s eczema or not. I do have an eczema cream. I will use that. After I rested for a bit, I then showered. I needed one as the last time I showered was Monday.

I had therapy today. We talked about being sad about Dolly and how great a human she was. We then talked about scheduling as I won’t be available on Mon and Wed anymore because of my classes. We worked in a time. She asked about seeing twice a week but I don’t know how long it will take for me to get home. Sometimes it can take an hour and a half to get home or longer depending on train delays or if I catch the bus or not. Near the end of session, Honey started barking and she could hear her. It was funny. Apparently she wanted her chew toy and couldn’t get it. Silly pup.

No game on today as they are traveling. They are going to NY to play the snanks. Winners of the series will likely determine the wild card. Last time we didn’t do well. I hope the momentum has changed. I don’t know what the weather will be like in NY but there is a double header on Saturday. That should be fun. Not. I hate double headers. Seems whoever wins the first game, wins the second game, too.