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Saturday Blog 30052026

Some excitement today. There was a big boom around 215pm today in Boston. They don’t know if it was an earthquake or a meteor. I heard it as I was walking to the bus stop. I thought it was thunder but there was no lightening. Be interesting to see where the meteor hit.

It took forever for me to go out today. I didn’t want to because it was cold and windy as fuck out. The rain was hard at times but had stopped by the afternoon. But I needed to get my meds and a few groceries. And a few groceries was all I got. There wasn’t much money for me to get what I wanted. Everything is so expensive. But I have my turkey and bread for a sandwich post op for Monday.

I came home and needed a nap. I have no idea what I am going to have for dinner. Probably soup because I am cold. It is 63F in my room. I had to put on socks and a long sleeve shirt. I might have to reach for a sweatshirt.

I snoozed with the puppy today. She was being affectionate today. I love when she does that. She is such a good girl. Too bad the weather sucked for a walk.

I finally got my grades back! I passed the class with a C+! I got a 72 on the final. I did better than I thought I did. I am so glad. I started figuring out how many classes I need to finish. 11 classes with taking 3 classes in either fall of 27 or spring of 28. I still need to take a 400 level psych class, which will be spring of 27. I am getting so close yet it feels so far away.

Low energy day

My sister called me around 1130 and I figured it was time to get up. I still had to pick up my meds and some groceries. But I didn’t have any energy today. I had my coffee and then I laid down with the puppy all afternoon. I rested but didn’t sleep. I kept saying ok in a few I will get up and get dressed but it never happened. Yesterday wore me out. And I kind of had insomnia last night. I woke up around 1 to pee and had a hard time going back to sleep.

Some of my grades came in. I am at a D right now. I fear that if I did poorly on the exam, I will fail the class. My exam 3 grade got bumped up a few points. I was happy to see that. I just want to see a P in my grades.

I feel so tired and I have done nothing all day. I managed to eat something. I made a burger. I got to get more hamburger buns as I am out. I had my weight loss drug shot today. I am 195 now and hope to keep it off. Sunday I will just be drinking fluids day before my surgery. I want to get a turkey sub or a turkey sandwich for when I come home. I will go to the grocery store tomorrow. I got to get up early or I am not going to want to go.

I just got a wind advisory that tomorrow is going to be windy. I hope it is at least warm so my room doesn’t get cold. Sox are playing tonight. They lost terribly last night. Relief pitching gave up a grand slam and the ball game was lost. I was cussing so bad when he did. He is a terrible pitcher. Been bad all season. So disappointing. We are in last place. We are entering the 3^rd month of baseball season so maybe we can turn it around. I am always hopeful but I know realistically, my hopes might be too high.

Lot of walking going around in circles

I got up early and had my coffee. The puppy had a mess in the kitchen so I cleaned it up. I let her out for the sunshine even though when I went out there, it started to get cloudy. Rain was in the forecast but I wasn’t sure when it would be. I had a couple of hours before I had to leave the house.

I played with the puppy for about an hour. She wanted attention like no one gives her any. She kept going to the top of the stairs and then the back door for whatever reason and then came into the bedroom. She did this a few times. I don’t know what she was hearing. But then my niece came and took her for a walk. I went upstairs to my room.

I got dressed and then got my stuff together. I grabbed a recycled bag as I planned on going grocery shopping after my appt with the DMH worker. It was a nice day as I headed out even though the pollen count was high again. I waited for the bus and then the train. It was quick. I had about an hour to kill before my appt. I decided to go to the Verizon store to see if they could help me connect my acct to the app but there was just one guy there and he needed the other guy to help him. He told me to go to another store in downtown Boston to get it done. He also wanted me to switch to Verizon wireless. No thanks. I went across the street to Starbucks where they made my drink wrong but I got a reusable cup. I had one but someone got rid of the straw and lid on it so I have a new one now.

I told my DMH worker I was having surgery on Mon. She wants me to text her afterwards to let her know how I am doing. We set up a time in three weeks but I told her I might not be up and running by then. After the appt I went to the grocery store. They didn’t have the burgers I wanted. I was able to get some stuff for my chicken casserole dish but I didn’t have enough cash for everything. I was going around in circles in the store as I was not familiar where things were. I put in a lot of steps today by the time I came home. I thought about picking up my meds but I didn’t want the chicken to go bad being out for more than an hour. I will do that tomorrow.

I came home and was exhausted. I still needed to make dinner. I was kind of hungry. I had made a couple eggs before I got ready but I shared half with the puppy. I made a burger that I took out. I thought about making the chicken but it is too soon. I don’t want it to go bad before next week. I will make it over the weekend. I still need a couple of ingredients to complete the list.

My sister came home and I went downstairs. We had dinner. Then bitch came home and we got into an argument. Started when my sister said that her daughter needs to clean her room which bitch then said Mr. G needs to do the same. She kept on saying she will give me a box and a trash bag. I told her to fuck the box. She got me so mad. She said she wasn’t going to help me when she has the rest of the house. Then she asked why I couldn’t get someone to help me. I told her that I couldn’t get help with abled bodied people. She said to tell them that the other people in the house work. Obviously, she doesn’t understand abled bodied. Fucking idiot. I got so fucking mad I could feel my blood pressure rise. I had to leave. I grabbed the few things my sister gave me that I needed for Sunday and left. I am so aggravated. She just thinks she is right and I am wrong. And she has this smug attitude that I just want to slap silly.

I am going to bed early tonight because I got to pick up my meds tomorrow and the last few ingredients for the casserole. Maybe I will get a chapter or two of Finlay in as well (book I am reading).

Hot Wed 27052026

Today has been really warm. It is like 84F. My room is 81F with the ceiling fan on. I tried to make some headway towards the window by getting the recycle out of the way. There was more stuff than I realized there. Going to take a day to sort out. Hopefully by the weekend, I will have my AC working.

I was late in giving my T shot again this time around. I meant to do it in the morning but it slipped my mind. I had therapy this afternoon and we talked about one of my exes. It was a good talk. I am trying to set boundaries as I don’t want to be hurt again. We also talked about upcoming surgery and how my appt went yesterday. I told her it was kind of weird I didn’t get a slew of emails for our future appts. Maybe they will come later.

I wanted to take a shower before therapy but it never happened. So I will take one after I write this blog. I bought some Gatorade and more half and half. I had my last chicken pattie for lunch. I have no idea what I am having for dinner. I am not really hungry.

I finally got my pain meds squared away with my pcp. She put in a different script and it should be able to go through tomorrow. I will pick it up after my DMH worker’s appt. I plan on having a Starbucks drink tomorrow. I need a reward for finishing the semester even if grades aren’t back yet. UGH. Watch them come in on Friday, the day they are due.

I might read tonight after my shower. I wanted to read when I was up at 3am but I didn’t want to get all excited and be up all day. I managed to get some sleep afterwards around 6 or so.