midnightdemons7

Fall day and first quiz

Because I am playing Hooky next Monday with my history class, I had to do two assignments. Problem was yesterday I was tired and didn’t feel like doing squat. I did them this morning, even though that meant leaving later than planned. The new med is still giving me a hangover and it is really hard to get up in the morning.

It is cold today but nice. I had to wear a hoodie as it was quite windy. My curtain which is wrapped around my AC is no long as such. I need to fix it and block the vents so my room doesn’t become an ice box like it did last winter. It is cold in my room now but tolerable. I just need to put on a long sleeve shirt.

I went to class and had a half hour to spare. I tried studying but my mind was frazzled. It couldn’t hold on to any information. It was worse when I was handed the quiz. I barely remembered anything I had learned over the last few weeks. I had to cite sources and shit and my brain was like fuck that. Here is some info I remember. I hope it is enough to at least pass the quiz.

There was delays on the way home but I wasn’t in a rush. I just made the bus which was good. I would have been mad if I had to wait for the next one. The guy that was at the bus stop when I was waiting in the morning was there when I was coming home. OMG he started talking about a bunch of shit, mostly saying he couldn’t get his ADHD meds anymore for whatever reason. And then he just started talking to himself. I think he was homeless or something. He didn’t pay the bus but only went a few stops.

I came home very hungry. I had a little of everything but mostly the zucchini bread my sister made. It is so good. I might have soup for tonight because it is cold out. I need to buy more. I think I only have a couple cans left. I got a recipe for Wisconsin cheddar and potato soup. I have never made a soup before. I know my sister has. She makes a good corn chowder.

Taylor comes out with a deluxe version of Showgirl and I am debating buying it. It has four new songs. It will be released on Friday. I am excited though. I don’t know if she is releasing a video with her new songs. She is releasing a single. I cannot wait. I love her so much.

Such a down day

I got up late and had coffee. I made some hash browns with eggs for a kind of brunch. The only thing I had on my agenda was to do some schoolwork and attend a webinar later in the afternoon. I shaved before it. I am getting used to doing it every other day. I need to shower tonight. I also need to do my history homework. I don’t feel like doing anything. I am so depressed today. But seeing Jobes today helped. He had a slide about life worth living. He just makes me hopeful things won’t always be awful.

My left foot and calf has been bothering me most of the day. The foot I know is because of CRPS. The calf I have no idea why it is bothering me. Usually if I stretch it a lot it hurts but I haven’t. Maybe the walking is hurting it.

I took Honey for a short walk as she got all excited when we said the word. I just took her around the block and back. I wasn’t going around the full block because I didn’t have the energy for it. I barely had energy for the half a block. I was sweating even though it was cool out. My legs have been cold all day. I have shorts on. I will change to longer pants when I shower.

I woke up in the middle of the night so I read the gender chapter. It was interesting and I actually understood what it was talking about. It wasn’t talking in like a voice you had to guess what they were talking about. I hate books like that. Some of the clinical books are like that. It was good to know that brief CBT was still one of the treatments for suicidal ideation. That book I had trouble with.

Taylor is coming out with a new song on Fri. I cannot wait. I am listening to folklore again. I didn’t know what to listen to today. The album is corrupted as my MP3 app no longer counts the time I play the songs. I am not going to buy another album. But I might because I want exile on my top 25 list. I love that song.

I am tired. Sox game is on tonight. Tolle is on the mound. I want to listen to the game as there are only a few left in the regular season. They are going to the playoffs. Something I find incredulous. I honestly didn’t think they would get this far. But I remember my cousin said to hold out for a miracle and I secretly hoped there would be a winning streak. And there was. 17 games. Fucking amazing. But we got to play the snakes in the playoffs so it is going to be tough. One game at a time.