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Saturday Blog 06062026

I woke up around 2 to pee and never went back to sleep. I tried but my brain wouldn’t shut off. It kept thinking of the next adventure in the book I am reading. I couldn’t bring myself to read it because I knew it would wake me up. I was in pain. I had taken some Tylenol then about three hours later I took my pain meds. I laid with the puppy after I had my coffee. It was and is really hot in my room. The AC is such a game changer. I wish I had the energy to do the little cleaning I need to do to set my AC up but there is no way I can move stuff, even if it is light.

I had two meals today so that was good. I have been trying to drink more water but  it’s hot and I don’t like it when it’s hot. My urine smells and is cloudy so I need to try and drink more. I also haven’t had a bowel movement in a week. I am taking Miralax and senna. One of them should work soon. Also been taking magnesium. I feel really full and bloated. Any type of pressure I put on my belly to pass gas hurts. I don’t want to rip my stitches. Hopefully I will go tomorrow. But I don’t feel anything moving.

I wanted to wash up today but never did. Just to have a cool cloth on me. I hate the heat. It is driving me crazy. And I need to trim my mustache a bit as there is hair getting in my mouth when I eat. I want a haircut but I know I won’t be able to shave yet as it takes too much arm stretching.

I talked with my pcp’s nurse yesterday about the weight loss drug. I am at 195 lbs and I am happy about that. There is no higher dose so I am staying at this dose. The OR clipped my hair on my abdomen so it was nice and neat. It was all shaggy before. I am so hairy. I still don’t know why I am getting pain off the center of my belly button, like to the RLQ. I hope the surgeon calls on Monday so I can ask him if it is normal.

I haven’t decided if I am going to keep track of the ball game or not. I have lost interest because they keep losing. They won last night. I fell asleep before the game started. I was so tired last night. I am tired now but I am not sleepy. I want to read my book because it excites me. I am wicked hot though so I might go downstairs where the AC is. Sitting up is easier and doesn’t hurt as much as it did. It is just mainly when I move that I hurt. I haven’t had heartburn since surgery or reflux. I hope they stay away. I don’t plan on doing anything tomorrow except read my book.

I was bad at taking my pain meds so was in a lot of pain today. I mostly stayed in bed. I had therapy in my niece’s room. Honey kept me company and after she went for a walk, she started kissing me, which my therapist saw. It was sweet.

My therapist and I talked about my suicidality when I was a kid. I didn’t know why I wanted to talk about it. I was in pain and it was hard for me to get comfortable but the session was almost over. I am sure we’ll pick it up next week.

I stayed with Honey for an hour or so. She wanted to go out so I let her out and stayed out with her. Then my sister came home and we went inside. It was really warm today in the 80s. I had some small things to eat. Then I ordered junk food. I wanted some chocolate chip cookies and ice cream. I ended up just eating a few cookies. Honey wanted some but we told her no. Didn’t stop her from sniffing lol. She didn’t get into anything.

The surgeon called me today to check on me. He said to take Miralax twice a day to go. I haven’t gone yet. Then my pcp’s nurse called about the LTD paperwork I sent. They wanted to know why they had to fill it out. Told them it was because of my crps and back issues. They don’t have a previous record. I don’t know why that is as it’s done every year.

Sox lost today. Bello got sent down to Worcester. He needs an adjustment. Just awful this year. He was good last year. This year he is pathetic. They are still in last place. I don’t see them leaving that spot anytime soon. Will need a string of wins for that to happen.

I had a lot of pain last night. It kept me up and woke me up several times last night. I didn’t sleep well at all. I was alternating my pain meds with Tylenol.

Pain is a little better today but I am wicked tired. I tried to sleep but there has been a stupid beeping noise from construction trucks all fricken day. So annoying.

I haven’t been eating. I tried to eat some food I ordered but it was so salty. I had a protein smoothie so that was good. I haven’t had an appetite. But I am drinking fluids. I wish I bought another thing of apple juice. I like drinking it.

My sister came home from work sick. She had a cough attack and then she came home. She better not give her cold to me.

I want to take a shower because I am all itchy for some reason. I’ve also been sweaty. It’s 83F today. But I can’t get my stitches wet. I need to get some wipes to clean myself.

I am wicked constipated and need to take some miralax. I don’t know if the pain near my lower abdomen is because of stitches or being backed up. I resumed taking senna but it hasn’t worked yet. I know taking my pain meds is making things worse.

I have therapy tomorrow. If I am feeling up to it, I am going to talk about my suicidality in the past.