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Mother’s day 2026

I woke up early but didn’t feel like going out. I told my sisters I had a migraine. I was feeling pretty depressed. I didn’t want to get out of bed. I did though to have some coffee and something to eat. I could only manage one cup of coffee. My stomach was bothering me after the one cup. I had a bowl of cereal.

My niece came home and the puppy was all excited. I think she left again though. I took a nap in the afternoon. Honey decided to take an adventure down the street. She left the house while no one was looking and stayed at my aunt’s house. I am glad she wasn’t too far away.

I feel lifeless. I wish I had therapy tomorrow. I don’t have it till Wed. I am kind of nervous about tomorrow. I took the practice exam again and wrote it in my notebook. I will take it with me and study. I have like 2 or 3 hours after the CT scan before the exam starts but they are doing stuff on the redline so I need to leave early anyways. I am going to get a sub from my favorite sub shop so I have something to eat. I might be able to get some Starbucks but we’ll see how much time I have.

I have such a busy week this week. My only day off is Friday. And I will be studying for the final on next Mon. I am so close to finishing this course. I really can’t wait to study the American Revolution next semester. It has been so long since I studying American history. I have been consumed by suicidology books the past few years that I haven’t read any history books. I have to make a pile of books I want to read while I recovery from surgery. The week I see the surgeon is when I am going to go to the library and get that fucking book I have been meaning to read and maybe the one after it if they have it. I got to know what happens next and it has been more than a year that I have been waiting.

Saturday Blog 09052026

I slept most of the night and didn’t get up till noon. I had coffee and breakfast as I was hungry. I also made the pup some eggs. She loves them. I didn’t put any seasoning in them. I did in mine when I took them from the pan. I couldn’t eat them plain. I played my game and was on social media for a bit. Then I brushed my teeth and stayed with the puppy for a bit. She was uninterested so I went up to my room to do some studying.

I went over the answers I got wrong so I would know the right answers. Now I am going to write out the exam so I know the material. I did find an error on the answer key. I emailed the lecturer but I don’t think she is going to do anything about it. I only have until tomorrow to study and the rest of the night tonight. I am kind of tired but I know once I get started, I will wake up.

Tomorrow I am supposed to go with my family for brunch at one of our favorite places to eat that unfortunately is closing next month. They have the best chicken fingers that they call wings but they really are just fingers as they don’t have bones. I kind of want to order a turkey club to go as a sandwich to have for lunch on Monday. I have to be fasting for my CT so plan to eat afterwards. I just hope I can wake up tomorrow morning for the brunch.

A couple of hours ago, I got cramps on the left side of my chest. Now I have muscle pain. I took some ibuprofen. I also plan on taking some Ativan tonight but after I do the studying. I hate that after three years I still get pain in my chest and right under my scar still hurts if I touch it. I don’t know what to do to ease the pain. The muscles have been knotted up for so long.

I will only see my therapist once next week because I have a lot of appts. It’s going to be a busy week. I am glad I don’t have lab though. It give me a little break between the appts.

I woke up around 3 am and stayed up. I couldn’t go back to sleep. I had around 4 hours of sleep. I think I will be taking a trazodone tonight.

I had one cup of coffee. I meant to have a second but never made it. I hung out with the pup most of the day. I did some studying despite a pup that wanted attention. She has been on me all day. She got a little bit too affectionate and ended up scratching my neck and chest. She was like trying to do biscuits. I had to laugh. She was so funny.

I took a little nap that helped. I am now listening to the ballgame. It just started.