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Sunday activities

I slept late but I felt kind of wonky. I didn’t have a headache but it felt like I had one. I had my coffee after I checked the messages on my phone. I was hungry but I didn’t know what I wanted to eat. But after having coffee, it suppressed my appetite.

I did my meds for the week. I need to get more magnesium when my big check comes this week. Kind of sucks because the price has gone up. I can only get two bottles at a time now, unless they are on sale for a buy one get one free or half off.

I miss my puppy. She is with her daddy. He is supposed to bring her back but I don’t know when. Apparently, the other dog and her are competing for daddy’s affection and are fighting. I just hope she is eating ok.

Today was my nephew’s birthday. I finally saw him again. He will be moving back home soon. I can’t wait. I wish his mother was moving out. I can’t stand her. She is on my last nerve these days.

I have therapy tomorrow. I have been depressed the past few days. I can’t seem to get out of this funk. I keep thinking about my black and white thinking. I don’t know how to get past it. I go down this rabbit hole of thinking. I feel so bad and guilty all the time. Like everything is my fault. I haven’t left the house in a few days. I have been outside in my backyard. It is nice there. I need to shower. I managed to brush my teeth today. I haven’t been doing a good job at it. I need to see a dentist about my broken tooth. I don’t know if the tooth can be saved or not. One of the many worries I have been having lately. My biggest worry is whether or not I can get my groceries this month. I bought some stuff so I just need my Powerade and a few other things. I haven’t filled a grocery order in a month so need stuff.

My surgeon didn’t order a CBC to check my white count. I guess I will have to go to my pcp now. I am tired. I want to start reading the new book but I also want to sleep. Sox are playing but it is  a pitcher’s duel and I hate those kind of games. Makes the time go by but also eat up innings. Sox are leading 2-0 over the skanks. Hopefully we will keep the lead.

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I had another flare up of CRPS last night. I slept very little. I ended up finishing my book, which ended on a cliff hanger so I have to read the next book now. I am starting a new book tonight, Leonard and Hungry Paul. It’s supposed to be good.

Today was sunny and bright. I had the curtain open and it brought in the sun which made it hard to sleep. I got out of bed and closed it. I need to get some duct tape and tape the curtains back. Now my room is darker and I like it.

I got some brain fog going on today. I don’t feel good. I feel really tired. Pain is tiring. I have my room at the right cool temp. I am not wearing a shirt. I wanted to be shirtless. I am feeling kind of sad today for some reason. I feel so useless. I haven’t been eating much the past few days even though I am hungry. Today I just had a bagel and two cups of coffee and I am full. I just don’t want to eat. I bought pizza the other day and was only able to have one slice. I had one for breakfast yesterday. I love cold pizza. It is so good. I wish my mood could be better sometimes. I rather feel nothing than feel depressed. Feeling depressed gets me thinking negative thoughts and feelings. I go down a spiral that is hard to get back up again.

I want to start the new book but I am tired and just want to go to bed. So that is what I am going to do.

Little did I know…

I woke up late this morning. I had weird dreams. None of which caused a headache. So far today, I don’t have one and hope it stays that way. I went to bed early last night because I felt so shitty.

I had a lot of messages on my phone when I got up. I had emails from my advisor. The financial aid paperwork was done and she wanted me to submit it ASAP. So after I had lunch and coffee, I logged on and submitted it. Now I got to hope it is accepted. I am kind of nervous now because I am taking three classes in the fall and even though I think they should be ok, I don’t really know until I get the syllabus. It might be more intense than I think it will be. I can’t imagine the one credit course to be intense though. It meets one day a week. My Mondays are going to be mostly on campus. I just worry that I won’t have time for my online class. I try to stay on top of it but if there is a lot of reading, it might be tough. I know the American Revolution class is going to be reading and honestly, I can’t wait.

I don’t have plans today other than reading my book. It is warm today. I just got the electric bill and running two ACs have caused it to be high. I am hoping I can get my groceries this month. But I have to wait until my bills clear, which won’t be until the 6^th this month because of the holiday.

I brought the puppy outside as she came in my room and was whining. I didn’t know what she wanted. I gave her some carrots but all she did was litter them around the house. I put her on the porch but then she came back in whining again. So to the yard I brought her. I would have walked her but I didn’t feel like it. When I couldn’t stand being outside anymore because of the heat, I took her in. We stayed on the porch until her daddy came. Now she is happy.