midnightdemons7

Saturday Blog 19092026

I am in a pissy mood today. I got up and just had a bowl of cereal. Then I had coffee. Bitch sister kept talking to me and I just want silence. They were going to go to my niece’s new house to do some cleaning. I had to shower and shave so I wasn’t going. Bitch said I had to put the liner on before I showered. Great. I wanted to go back to bed. Yesterday I slept all day. I did too much walking this week. My back was killing me and kept cramping on me. I went to the NP on the Thurs. and she said to keep doing what I am doing but if it continues or get worse to call back.

I did all my schoolwork on Thurs night. I just got to do my history thing which I will do later today. My stomach is feeling off. I am going to take it easy with what I am eating. I am thinking a bologna sandwich later. I start the new antidepressant tomorrow night. I hope it helps. I feel rotten.

I forgot to take the weight loss drug yesterday. I am going to take it today. My weight is up because I have been eating a lot lately. My appetite is up. I have been more active so I think that is why.

I am trying to stay up but it is difficult. All I want to do is sleep. Maybe once I shave and brush my teeth I will wake up a little bit. I got to shave my head because it is wiffle length and if I go too much longer, I will have to buzz it down. It’s been more than a few days since I last shaved. I just haven’t had time. I would have done it yesterday but I was too sleepy. My nephew made some pasta last night and I had some of it. It was the only thing I ate the whole day. Then I went back to bed. I was late in taking my night meds. I have been taking the Robaxin around the clock for the spasms and cramps. It has been helping. The NP said she would send me some exercises for the upper back but she didn’t. I just need a good massage I think.

Sleep sucks

I woke up around 3am. I don’t remember why. I think I had to pee or something. I couldn’t get back to sleep. I was tossing and turning. I wasn’t that awake to read and I didn’t want to make myself awake. Around 4 I took an Ativan. But I didn’t get back to sleep till after 7 and then I woke up around 9 to pee again. I stayed up. Because my bitch sister put my bagels in the freezer, I had smores pop tart with my coffee. I keep forgetting to take one out so I can have it.

I brushed my teeth and then tried to decide what I was going to wear. The temp was cool but it was supposed to reach 80. I don’t think it ever did. It was humid though. But a nice day. I left early because I didn’t want to risk laying down and falling asleep or be lazy and miss my bus. The bus was late today anyway. My back hated standing and waiting for so long. I am going to see my pcp’s NP tomorrow about it.

I made a sandwich before leaving the house so I would have something to eat either before or after class. I was hungry before class so sat somewhere and ate it. I need to get another water bottle. My allergies were off the hook this morning. The smell of fresh cut grass was making me sneeze and I love the smell of freshly cut grass. I had like an hour to spare before class. I should have brought my gender book to try and get caught up on the reading. I just checked the syllabus and there are three fucking chapters I need to read. Fuck me. I hope they don’t have to be handwritten like last week. I haven’t gotten that far.

On the way home there was delays on the redline. It took forever to get to my stop and then there was delays between the stop before mine and my stop. I was ready to cry. I just wanted to go home and put my feet up. My back and feet were hurting me so much. I need new sneakers or insoles or something. The pair I have is more than a year old. I only buy New Balance and the price has gone up like everything else. I think it is like $85 for a pair, not on sale. I have been waiting to buy them. Might have to finagle the bagel to get them this month.

I am listening to Tim McGraw. Love him so much. I haven’t listened to him in a long while. Sox are playing at 8 tonight because they are in Texas. They lost last night and I think they will lose tonight. I don’t have faith in the starting pitcher. Three weeks left of games. Still in the run for post season but not if they continue to fucking lose. They are still above 500 so that is good. I am wicked tired so want to go to bed early. I need to do some reading though. Hope I can muster up some concentration.