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Long lab session

I had some good sleep though I kind of woke up at 1 to pee and couldn’t get back to sleep. I finally did around 8am for a couple of hours. I had to get up for coffee and then get ready to go to campus. I was an hour early, which just made the day longer. I was stuck in lab because I missed a crucial lab of what we were doing today and the TA wanted to make sure I got it. I am failing the lab and the teacher finally got back to me. She gave me an excel sheet to “predict” my grade and if the scores pan out, I will get a C in the class but I have it as a pass/fail just in case it is not.

I didn’t get home until after 7pm after leaving at 12. I tried to get my meds but the card reader at the ATM I use wasn’t working. So I went to another ATM near my home. This way I can just go to the pharmacy my next trip out.

I had a ton of anxiety about my therapy appt so I asked my therapist if I could see her tomorrow rather than Thursday. I have an appt with my pcp and I would have to be near the clinic for my 1pm appt with my therapist and then the 230 appt with pcp. We decided, sort of, to talk about trauma and I didn’t know if the weather would cooperate with me to talk outside. I can just talk tomorrow in the privacy of my home, hopefully near Honey, if my niece isn’t home. She has been home the past few days after being gone for like two weeks. I hope she goes back to work tomorrow so I can have my Honey time.

I wanted to take a hot shower because my upper body is hurting. I had to lug my laptop into lab and that just makes my bag so heavy. I was really tired by the end of lab so going home I got out of breath really easily. My leg is swollen but the sock marks have dissipated. My ankle hurts. I really got to take a shower tomorrow. I am spent and don’t have the energy for one.

Marathon Monday 2026

I have a childhood friend that runs the Boston Marathon every year. He has been doing it for the past 28 years. I am so proud of him. The Sox won their game. They tied the series so that was good.

It took forever for me to get up today. I just didn’t want to. A little after noon, I got up to make some coffee but I didn’t eat anything with it. My stomach was bothering me and I wasn’t sure if the coffee was going to make it worse or not. After the coffee, I went back to my room as I had therapy. It went ok. We talked about stuff and I told her I wanted to start, gently, to talk about trauma. She agreed and we will have a bit more of discussion the next time we meet. I gave her my analysis of a song paper to read.

The puppy was a little rascal today because my niece was home. After she ate, she became this little energized bunny. She “attacked” me with kisses. It was a funny thing. I loved it. She was so loveable.

It was cold today, barely above 50 degrees. And the wind made things colder. It is cold in my room now because the wind has picked up. After therapy, I took a long nap. I didn’t want to get up but I had to eat something. I made a chicken sandwich. The puppy wanted some, of course. I told her no and she went back to her room.

I tried to do the lab work and I have no idea how to answer the questions so I guessed. Going to be cold tomorrow, too. I am going to have to bring my laptop. We will be running some program on genes.

I don’t know why I feel so sleepy. I need to read the chapter that we are on. I hope it isn’t long.

Another sleepless night on a cold night

It has been cold most of the day and rainy. I tried sleeping with the pup last night and it didn’t work at all. I just couldn’t fall asleep. She was all over the place, kept moving around. Thankfully my niece is home so she can calm her down. I was literally up from 10 am Saturday till about 5pm today.

I still feel tired. I had to get up to pee. I petted puppy for a bit who was really happy to see me. She kept pawing at my chest and licking my face. I didn’t do anything today. I feel kind of down. I kept on having these fantasies that I was in kidney failure again. I was going through my calendar last night and realized I don’t have most of the appts that I should have in it. So I added them. I have to add the appts in June too but will do that another day.

I am going to read tomorrow. I have just therapy planned. I am not sure what we will talk about. I had a lot of pain last night that I ended up taking a pain med, which contributed to me staying up all night. My left leg has been bothering me for some reason. I don’t know if it is because of the T shot or something else. And despite me taking a shower, I feel so itchy all over my body. I had to take a Benadryl.

I don’t have a book that I can read. Well I do have books, I just can’t decide which one to read next. I think it is going to be the Joe Kelly one about baseball. That should be fun.

It has been wicked cold most of the day and the wind just makes it colder. It is going to be cold the rest of the week. I think the warm temps were a tease.

I slept ok. I got up around 10 and nearly forgot to take my meds. I asked my sister if she could take me to the grocery store as I was out of half and half. While I was getting ready she took the puppy for a walk. She is allergic to dogs so I was shocked. She then put her in the back yard. She wasn’t as scared as when I took her out. My brother in law brought her in when we left for the store. I finally had hot dogs.

I haven’t done anything the rest of the day. My Sox lost the game. Bello didn’t have his stuff today. He has struggled all through spring training. We still have a losing record so far. Hope when the weather is warmer, we win more games.

I had a cup of coffee around 330pm. It killed my stomach even tho I had a biscuit with it. I think I am just going to take an Ensure with my night meds.

I have been hanging out with the puppy most of the day. She has been cuddling me. I managed to shave and messed up my goatee. One side is shorter than the other. I might shave it completely off tomorrow if I can’t get the other side the same. I need to take a shower tonight. Might have to wear flannel PJs. The wind is making my room wicked cold. My arms have been freezing most of the day. I need to wear a long sleeved shirt.

I got another headache today. I wanted to do some reading for class tonight. I’ll see if the shower helps. I already took some Tylenol. Just hope this doesn’t become a migraine. Rain is supposed to happen tomorrow so I think that is why. Temps have been fluctuating so much I am surprised I haven’t had a headache sooner.